Sunday, April 20, 2014

O Happy Fault

“O happy fault that earned for us so great, so glorious a Redeemer!”

Happy Easter!  May we, together, rejoice in the Resurrection of our Lord and the opportunity for new life that He has given us this day.  In This Easter reflection, I want to meditate on a little excerpt from the Exsultet sung at the Easter Vigil.  “O happy fault that earned for us so great, so glorious a Redeemer!”  This phrase speaks of the fall, of Adam and Eve’s original sin that introduced sin into the world.  The Exsultet calls original sin a “happy fault”.  At first glance, this can seem strange.  How can we rejoice even in our sin?

To answer this question, we must look to the second half of the phrase: “that earned for us so great, so glorious a Redeemer!”  We can rejoice even in our weakness because our suffering has been redeemed.  By His life, death, and resurrection Jesus has “made all things new” (Revelation 21:5).  He has revealed to us the power of His love to conquer even our greatest limitations.  It is because of this love that we rejoice; by this love we have been redeemed!

Father Maximos Davies, a Byzantine Catholic monk, gave us a great analogy about sin in a retreat we had at the beginning of Lent.  He said that God created us as cucumbers, nice and smooth according to His will.  But He gave us free will, and we chose to reject God’s love by soaking ourselves in the brine of sin.  Thus, we became pickles, scarred forever by our sin.  In a loving response, God said, “Well, I preferred pickles anyway.”  Thus God accepted us, as poor and sinful as we had chosen to become, and loved us through it all.  He proved it through sacrificing His only begotten Son for our salvation.  This is a cause for great joy!

God permits sin as a vehicle to the love and mercy of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.  Thus, our sins and the sins of others should never shock us or cause us to love ourselves or others less.  We must thank God for the crosses we bear, for our brokenness and limitations, for He uses these to lead us along His path, deeper into His love and mercy, and thus deeper into relationship with Him.  Therefore, we are able to rejoice even in our sin, weakness, and poverty because it is through these that we find the love of so great a Redeemer.  And as we find this love, may we meet Jesus Christ as our Savior and be led ever deeper into love, communion, and relationship with Him.

We adore you, O Christ, and we praise you because by your Holy Cross you have redeemed the world.

“The stone the builders rejected has become the cornerstone.” (Psalm 118: 22)
“Let this holy building shake with joy!” (Exsultet)

Rejoice in the Lord,


Hayden

Wednesday, April 16, 2014

He Emptied Himself

(Note: I realize this is a little bit early for a Triduum reflection but at Conception we go into a retreat starting Holy Thursday, so I won’t have time to post this other than now.  Please pray for me throughout the Triduum, and know that I will be praying for you.)

“Have among yourselves the same attitude that is also yours in Christ Jesus, Who, though he was in the form of God, did not regard equality with God something to be grasped.  Rather, he emptied himself, taking the form of a slave, coming in human likeness; and found human in appearance, he humbled himself, becoming obedient to death, even death on a cross.”

-Philippians 2: 5-8

He emptied himself.  Just sit with those words for a little bit.  He emptied himself.

Jesus Christ, who was and is God, “became flesh and made his dwelling among us” (John 1: 14).  He “did not regard equality with God something to be grasped.”  He emptied himself.  He spent the first thirty hears of His life in quiet, humble obedience to human parents.  He emptied himself.  In His last three years, He traveled throughout His region proclaiming the Kingdom of God and working miracles among the people.  “The blind regain their sight, the lame walk, lepers are cleansed, the deaf hear, the dead are raised, the poor have the good news proclaimed to them.” (Luke 7:22).  He emptied himself.  He fell to His knees and washed the feet of His Apostles, serving and loving them until the end.  He emptied Himself.  He knelt down in a garden and sweat blood at the trial ahead, all the while praying for the Apostles – “I am praying for them…whom thou has given me” (John 17: 9) – and you and I – “I do not pray for these only, but also for those who believe in me through their word” (John 17:20).  He emptied Himself.  And finally, He walked the road of Calvary and died the infamous death of the Cross, loving even those who killed Him to the end.  “Father, forgive them; for they know not what they do.” (Luke 23: 34).  He emptied Himself.

For me, Jesus’ life is entirely summed up in these words of St. Paul.  In every single thing He did, down to even the tiniest details of His life, He emptied Himself.  That’s what I want to focus on in this Holy Week reflection: Jesus’ emptying out of Himself for love of His Father and His people – you and I and the entire world.

First, Jesus emptied Himself out to the Father.  There’s a Latin expression my spiritual director, Father Xavier, likes to use when speaking of what our disposition should be during our monthly days of retreat.  He tells us to be “vacare Deo” – to be empty for God.  This is exactly what Jesus lived in his relationship to His Father.  In the Gospel of John, Chapter 5, verse 30, Jesus says, “I can do nothing on my own authority; as I hear, I judge; and my judgment is just, because I seek not my own will but the will of Him who sent me.”  Here Jesus is telling us that everything He does, He does because it is the will of the Father.  He is obedient in all things, never seeking His own will. In total submission, abandoning His own will in all the preaching He did and miracles He worked, Jesus emptied Himself before the Father.

This emptiness is fully realized in the Agony of the Garden.  “Father, if thou art willing, remove this cup from me; nevertheless not my will, but thine, be done.” (Luke 22:42).  Here Jesus pours Himself out in prayer, begging that His trial be removed.  But He concludes by pouring out His life to His Father, obedient even unto the death to which He knows He is about to walk.  He empties Himself before His Father in His prayer during the deciding moment of His life, where He chooses His Father’s will over everything else.  He goes on to the Cross, where He places His entire life in His Father’s hands.  “Father, into thy hands I commit my spirit!” Jesus says in Luke 23:46.  This obedience to the point of death is truly incredible, and the example we must follow, emptying ourselves of our own will in submission to our Heavenly Father’s.

Now let’s take a deeper look at Jesus emptying Himself for us.  John 13:1 reads, “Having loved his own who were in the world, he loved them to the end”, and boy did He prove it.  Next time you get a chance, just take a look at a Crucifix.  Don’t just pass it by, really look at it, ponder it, and pray with it for a little bit.  There you will see Divine Love personified, crucified for you.  Jesus did not only give up His life because it was His Father’s will – He gave up His life out of love for you and me.  Throughout all of that torturous suffering He went through, Jesus was thinking of you, me, the entire human race.  “The good shepherd lays down his life for the sheep.” (John 10:11).  He emptied Himself out of love for His sheep, to offer all of us a chance at salvation.

And not only did Jesus die for us, He died for us while we were still sinners, “enemies of the cross of Christ”, as St. Paul says in Philippians 3:18.  In fact, the people He came to save rejected Him and put Him to death – and He still begged His Father to forgive them.  And how often does He do the same thing for us, who sin against Him and His love time and time again!  Talk about emptying Himself.  There is no greater example because there is no greater love.  Let us remember that total, self-emptying love as we celebrate our Lord’s Passion.  Together, let’s learn from that love that goes beyond all human understanding.  Let us pray for the grace to imitate that love in our daily lives.

Let us “have among [ourselves] the same attitude that is also [ours] in Christ Jesus.”  Let us abandon ourselves to our Father’s will in prayer and action.  Let us extend Christ’s crucified love to all of those we encounter in our daily lives.  Let us empty ourselves, as Jesus did before us.

O Most Sacred Heart of Jesus, have mercy on us.

In His love,


Hayden

Tuesday, March 25, 2014

Fiat

“And Mary said, ‘Behold, I am the handmaid of the Lord; let it be to me according to your word.’”

-Luke 1:38

Today marks the Feast of the Annunciation, an occasion of joy for the Church in the midst of the penitential season of Lent.  This year especially, I have grown a lot in love for the Annunciation according to Luke and in love of the Blessed Virgin Mary out of this beautiful mystery.  The part of the Annunciation that I want to focus on here in Mary’s “fiat”, literally in Latin, “let it be done”.  This is what Mary says in response to the angel Gabriel announcing to her that she would conceive by the Holy Spirit and give birth to the Son of God, Jesus Christ.  This is something I have been reflecting on a lot lately and I have found this reflection to be very valuable in my spiritual life.

First of all, I want to look at the fiat in and of itself.  Mary’s declaration first strikes me as an exclamation of faith.  It is difficult to imagine being told by an angel that you are going to conceive a child by the Holy Spirit, and Mary acknowledges this when she says, “How can this be, since I have no husband?” (Luke 1:34)  The angel Gabriel answers that, “For with God nothing will be impossible.” (Luke 1:37)  Mary immediately gives her assent of faith, pronouncing her beautiful fiat.  Her complete faith in God’s power and His plan is incredible to me.  This faith that places all of its trust in God and surrenders to Him without hesitation is something I think we should all strive to better imitate in our own lives.

The second aspect of Mary’s fiat that I have reflected on is her profound humility.  Through Mary’s total acceptance, telling the angel to “let it be to me according to your word”, I have learned a lot about what true humility is.  Humility, in this context and in my new understanding after much reflection, can simply mean acceptance: acceptance of ourselves, acceptance of God’s plan, etc.  In short, humility accepts everything, every aspect of life, as a gift from God that He has given with our best interest in mind.  Mary is the model of this virtue, and I would suggest that her humility is what allowed her to crush the head of the serpent, the devil, as is depicted in many Marian sculptures and paintings.  My spiritual director here at Conception, Father Xavier, often says that the devil is defenseless against humility.  Once again, let us learn from Mary the humility it takes to pronounce “Let it be done” in response to all of the events, good and bad, in our lives.

Finally, I want to look at the fiat extended to the foot of the Cross.  As the mother of Jesus, Mary loved Him more dearly than anything else.  I think that this is common to all mothers – once they have children, their kids become their prized possessions.  In my own experience and hopefully yours too, our mothers hold us closer to their hearts than anything else, loving us above all.  This is the same love Mary had for Jesus.  Now imagine Mary standing at the foot of the Cross, helpless as she watched her Son die one of the most torturous deaths anyone could possibly face.  Imagine standing there and looking at your Son, knowing that He could save Himself if He wanted to, but being so resigned to God’s will that you just silently watch as He gives Himself up.  Mary was not just a bystander to the Crucifixion – in Jesus giving Himself up, she too gave up the part of her that she loved the most – her Son.  The faith and humility modeled in Mary’s appearance at the foot of the Cross, where her fiat is fully realized, is an incredibly powerful reflection for me.  There, at the foot of the Cross, we can learn from Mary what fiat truly means – acceptance of God’s plan in total faith even in the greatest physical and emotional suffering.  May we model Mary’s fiat everywhere in our lives, especially where it is most difficult.

Our Lady of Sorrows, pray for us.

In Jesus’ love through the Immaculate Heart of Mary,


Hayden

Sunday, March 9, 2014

Lent: A Season of Repentance

“Repent and believe in the gospel.”

-Mark 1:15

The Lenten season is marked by repentance, by recognizing the brokenness of our humanity and turning back to God.  But often I think we, myself included, confuse repentance.  Too many times I have asked questions like, “What am I going to give up for Lent?”, “How am I going to make myself a better disciple?”, “How am I going to improve my prayer life?”, or “How am I going to love my neighbor more?”  I believe these to be the wrong questions entirely.  A lot of times I think Lent causes us to fall into this self-centered mentality that fails to put God at the heart of our repentance.

Lent should be about seeking not self-improvement, growth, or perfection, but about seeking relationship.  That should be the ultimate goal of our Lenten repentance: renewal of our relationship with God.  One example I would like to offer is a contrast from two passages from the Gospel of Luke.  In Luke 8: 7-9 we read:

“Herod the tetrarch heard about all that was happening and he was greatly perplexed because some were saying, ‘John has been raised from the dead’; others were saying, ‘Elijah has appeared’; still others, ‘One of the ancient prophets has arisen.’  But Herod said, ‘John I beheaded.  Who then is this about whom I hear such things?’  And he kept trying to see him.”

Later on, we find in verses 18-20:

“Once when Jesus was praying in solitude, and the disciples were with him, he asked them, ‘Who do the crowds say that I am?’  They said in reply, ‘John the Baptist; others, Elijah; still others, “One of the ancient prophets has arisen.”’  Then he said to them, ‘But who do you say that I am?’  Peter said in reply, ‘The Messiah of God.’

In Matthew’s account of Peter’s confession about Jesus, Jesus replies, “Blessed are you, Simon son of Jonah.  For flesh and blood has not revealed this to you, but my heavenly Father.” (Matthew 16:17)  Herod, on the other hand, lived according to flesh and blood, the material world; thus, he could not know Jesus.  So it is clear that we must not let flesh and blood, the material world, get in the way of our spiritual life.  But I don’t think it is enough to just give a material possession or two up; Lenten repentance must go further.

Peter didn’t simply give up everything he had and then call it good; he gave up everything and then followed Jesus.  Simply giving up the world of flesh and blood did not suffice; it was the heavenly Father who revealed the identity of Jesus to Peter.  Peter’s repentance led him to relationship.  This, I believe, is the purpose of Lenten sacrifices, Lenten repentance.  May our sacrifices this Lent lead us to a deeper relationship with God, because that is what this season of repentance is all about.

Please pray for me this Lent, that my relationship with God may be deepened by repentance, and I will do the same for you.

In Jesus love through the Immaculate Heart of Mary,


Hayden

Sunday, March 2, 2014

Painting My Heart

“Let these words be the colors, I’m just painting my heart.”

-Jermaine Cole

In paragraph 2563, the Catechism of the Catholic Church says, “The heart is the dwelling place where I am, where I live…the heart is the place ‘to which I withdraw’…The heart is our hidden center, beyond the grasp of our reason, and of others…The heart is the place of decision, deeper that our psychic drives.  It is the place of truth, where we choose life or death.  It is the place of encounter…it is the place of covenant.”  In my own words, the heart is the place where God speaks.  As the Catechism says, it is the place of encounter, especially our encounter with God.  My heart, my place of encounter, is what I am trying to paint for you with these words.  That is the object of this blog, and why I open up with one of my favorite quotes: “Let these words be the colors, I’m just painting my heart.”

My name is Hayden Charles and I am a Roman Catholic seminarian studying for the Diocese of Wichita, Kansas.  I am currently in my first year at Conception Seminary College, but I am classified as a sophomore.  My purpose, as I said earlier, is to share my encounter with God, and hopefully extend the joy of the Gospel to others.  That, I have decided, is what I am going to call this little endeavor – “The Joy of the Gospel”.  I chose this name because in my encounter with Jesus Christ, especially this year, I have found great joy at the heart of the Gospel.  As Jesus tells the Apostles in the Gospel of John, Chapter 15, verse 11, “I have told you this so that my joy may be in you and your joy may be complete.”

In my heart throughout my journey of discipleship I have found joy…joy of an encounter, joy in being forgiven, joy in being called, joy in a relationship, joy in the hope of an eternity spent with God, joy in being led to my heavenly home.  In short, I have discovered the joy of being loved, and loved infinitely, to the point of death, by my God. 

This joy, the joy of the Gospel, is not just part of my life, not just a little piece of who I am.  The joy of the Gospel gives meaning to my life.  It isn’t something I can set aside and forget about in the midst of everyday struggles.  This joy of an encounter with Jesus Christ is a defining characteristic for me.  In the words of soon to be Saint John Paul II, Jesus has shown me that He alone can fill my heart.  And now I feel called to share this joy with you. 

I look forward to seeing what God has in store with this little project, and I hope that you do too.  Please know that I am very excited to share my heart and paint my encounter with God for you.  You will be in my prayers, and I encourage you to pray for me as something I have been praying about for a long time finally gets off the ground.  Thank you for reading, and please come again!

Mary, Cause of Our Joy, pray for us.

In Jesus’ love, through the Immaculate Heart of Mary,


Hayden